April 23, 2012

Light Heart, Happy Soul.

Inexpressible joy,
Widened horizons,
Unutterable beauty,
Pure relaxation,
Curious musings
-cannot be expressed in mere words, it seems. 
So pictures will suffice.
Home-made earl grey Madeleines (Thank you, Dori Greenspan!),
 Iced sun tea,
Walking to the library,
Absorbing every drop of the glorious sunshine,
These are all things I was given today,
Moments I was blessed with.
There is nothing to merit complaint when one lives knowing they are blessed. 
I am blessed indeed.
{This photo courtesy of Pinterest}

April 22, 2012

Let The Sunshine In

What a glorious, glorious day!!
Today's post is in reply to a blogging game of tag, the which I have Victoria from Raindrops and Moonlight to thank for the honours.
Here is how it works.
Number One. Rules and regulations must be visible to all. (I'm already ahead of the game!)
Number Two. Post eleven (Count 'em!) facts of random insignificance about yourself.
Number Three. Answer the eleven questions posed you by the tagger in his or her post.
Number Four. Ask those you will tagging eleven questions for them to answer in their responses (You can be a pokey-proddy as you like!).
Number Five. Alert those you are tagging that they have, indeed, been cornered, er, tagged, by posting to their bloglands. 
Let the games begin! 
And may the odds be ever in your favour. 
Ah. Eleven random and insignificant facts. Hm.
Fact 1. I am absolutely, head-over-heels in love with Clair de Lune by Claude Debussy. And I mean in love. In all the known world, it is my favourite song. I can't think of anything I'd rather hear more than that tune, all excepting the voice of Christ, of course. Well, and a chorus of heavenly angels. 
Fact 2. I have not, in fact, read The Hunger Games. So I really had no right to use that line up there. I have read a lot though. I've always been an avid reader, and don't really do a lot of modern stuff. I stick closely to classics, poetry, literature. You know, I've never had a better friend than a good book (and the Lord). Books are always there for you, they are passages to new places, foreign countries, lands that don't even exist. And is that not the most wonderful thing you can imagine? How words have the power to bring into vivid existence places that subsist only in One's mind! Sometimes when I write I feel nearly ashamed, for it's almost like playing God (Oh dear, that sounds a great deal more sacrilegious than it means!)
Fact 3. I don't mind waking up early. Go back to my posts last Summer and you will see that it's true. You will also see a great deal of my second-rate prose, but it's an awful lot to do with sunrises and such. I think the sunrise is one of God's greatest and loveliest gifts to us, right up there with cherry blossoms and koi fish.
Fact 4. I have recently gotten gel nails (Fake nails), and they are kind of hard to type with. So far they've been marvelously helpful at work. Not so much on a keyboard, though. 
Fact 5. I am destined to be a cat lady. Although I talk about marrying someday, the larger part of me is convinced that I am really going to end up an old maid with ten cats that all drink milk from blue china bowls. The odd part is, I really don't mind. I think part of this belief stems from the fact that almost all of the men I've met are hardly men at all. There is a certain lack of gentility, sincerity, truth, abandon for Christ that inhabits nearly the entire male population. I am willing to say that much of the lack of respect for women tends from women's lack of respect for themselves. If more women would sit down and be ladies, perhaps more men would stand and be gentlemen. But this is besides the point. I'm tired of dressing modestly and behaving well and still having to practically force whomever I am speaking to's eyes up.With cats, you don't have that trouble. 
Of course, part of the belief also stems from my finding it hard to believe that there is any man who wants hand-knit socks, someone to sing harmony, books stacked higgledy-piggledy all over the house, can understand (and return) my Shakespeare references, and eat Quiche Lorraine for dinner. But who knows: God is a God of miracles. 
Fact 6. I like swing sets. 
I've often thought that it would be fun to do a cross-country journey mapped by swing sets. When you see one, you pull over and have to swing for a bit. And then you write about it, be it essay, prose, or poetry, and rate it. And you play the guitar and sing during the drive.
Fact 7. Goldfish crackers, dried bananas, frozen grapes, watermelon, mochi, peanut M&Ms, nectarines, and ginger chews are some of my favourite snacks. Also, hummus, but that's more like an hors d'ourve.
Fact 8. I am so very thankful for the love and salvation of Jesus Christ. It is the reason I am living, the reason I sing, and what keeps me smiling. The entire point of my existence is to magnify Christ and to tell of the Lord, and it is a task I am so honoured to undertake. 
Fact 9. I love picnics.
Fact. 10. I hate algae.
Fact 11. I love hats. Not baseball caps, hats. Especially the 1920s cloches and 1930-1940s styles. I have begun a small collection and am slowly amassing quite a number of them. What ever happened to the days when women never left the house without a smashing piece of headgear? 

Now: to answer the questions posed me.
Question 1.  If you had a choice between spending a day in a mountain forest or at the seaside, which would you choose and why? 
Well, naturally, the sea! But...I do love the mountain forest...I know! I'd go to the mountain on day one, and visit the sea side the next! I'd do it in this order because it's just the descending order of things. Also, one does need a bath after camping.

Question 2.  How do you define true beauty?
This is such a question! Real beauty? It is anything that is true, that escapes the easy reach of words, can't be taken in all at once, and is so very complex, even in its simplicity. 

Question 3.  What's the one thing that, without fail, will always touch your heart?
Well...beauty. I feel like I'm cheating, because beauty includes a great many things, including birdsong, poetry, and a perfect piece of cheesecake.
Also, the theme from Titanic. Makes me cry every time.

Question 4.  What's the one thing that, without fail, will always make you want to scream and yell and generally have a fit?

When my siblings touch, maraud, or otherwise go through my things. I'm envisioning such instances as eating One's personally bought and specially labeled foodstuffs, using One's watercolours, and going through One's notebooks. No touchy, peeps. 

Question 5.  What is your opinion on parasols?
Why, oh why, did they ever go out of style! Instead, in an effort to keep cool, women today just resort to wearing hardly any clothing at all. I'm sorry, that just doesn't see logical to me. I've actually been on the market for a parasol for some time now. I just can't seem to find one at a reasonable price.

Question 6.  If an old guy in a pointy hat came to your door one fine morning and asked you to participate in an Adventure, what would you do?  Think about it, now!
Ooh! This is a good one! Seeing as I don't have hobbit feet, live in a hole in a hill, have a perfectly round door, nor only a slight inclination- from one person on one side of my family- for wandering, I would probably already have my bag packed, my staff ready, and my adventure shoes (and hat) on. Of course, I would invite said stranger to have some tea first. One musn't forget One's manners, even at the great temptation of a spontaneous adventure.

Question 7.  Poetry: hate it or love it?  Why or why not? 
I can't get enough of it!
It was even used in writing a great portion of the Bible!
I love poetry, because it sounds like what my heart and soul wish to say. 
I love the way the words unite together (in rhyming poetry), the rhythms, the expression, the form, the feeling. It is just so lovely. 

Question 8.  Do you have any passages of literature memorized? Why did you choose to memorize it, if so?
Whole chunks. My favourite is The Jabberwocky by Lewis Carroll, mostly because it is just so nonsensical, but I also have The Love Song Of J. Alfred Prufrock memorized, bits of Jane Austen's Persuasion, The Sunne Rising by John Donne (my favourite Donne Poem, actually), tons of the Bible, some Emerson, some Thoreau, some Shakespeare, and some Jacques, some Tennyson, some Salinger, some Cummings, a lot of Dickinson, and much more. I usually don't memorize it on purpose; a bit pops out at me, or I love a certain part, and before I know it I've got it memorized.

Question 9.  What do you wish most to accomplish by blogging?
To touch the hearts and lives of others. 
I acknowledge that words are powerful things, and I don't take my blog presumptuously. I want it to represent Christ, to make others laugh, to cause people to think, and to encourage everyone to open their eyes to all the things that surround them. 
And mostly to ramble. I like rambling.

Question 10. What do you base your like or dislike of a film on?
On whether or not it was any good. It's really not that hard.

Question 11.  Do you believe in the cliche saying "follow your heart"?  Why or why not?
"The heart is deceitful above all things a desperately wicked: who can know it?" -Jeremiah 17:9.
One shouldn't follow their heart.
One should always follow Christ's.

My eleven questions for those I shall tag are as follows.
1. Name a favourite book genre.
2. What's your favourite food and drink?
3. Where should you like to live abroad?
4. Would you rather have a parakeet or a cockatoo?
5. If you could stop one historical event from happening, what would it be? What do you imagine the repercussions would be today if it never happened? 
6. Ice skating or snowball fights?
7. What was the most embarrassing thing you've ever done in public?
8. Dance in the rain or lay in the sun?
9. If you were told you had ten million dollars to give to one person other than yourself, who would you give it to?
10. If you could, would you change the way things are coloured? An orange sky and purple grass, for instance. What colours would you choose?
11. What kind of dance would you most like to learn? What instrument? 
Whee, that was fun! 
Now, to tag others!
1. Emily Rose of Mist of the Blossom Rain
2. Marissa at Feathers and Dust 
3. Kimberly at {A}Musing
4. Lauren at Bits and Pieces
5. Brianne at To Twirl a Mustache
6. Kaley Grace at Over The Rainbow
Have fun, chaps!

April 18, 2012

Hide and Seek

"New Post" button. 
I'm finally back to haunt you again!
Here's what's been happening.

Thing One: I'm old(er).
I turned nineteen on April fifth.
I thought that, per usual on a birthday, I wouldn't feel any older.
Oh, but I do; so very very much older.
I feel like I keep running into old skeletons and ghosts, most of them having greatly to do with the person I was hardly a year ago.
Someone who looked (somewhat) like me on the outside, but was fumbling, lost and in the control of an Eating Disorder, on the inside.
(This picture still freaks me out. A lot.)
By the grace of God alone I'm still alive.
But all I've been able to think about lately is how things used to be.
All I ever do is think about the past.
Whether it's things that happened twenty years before I was born, or words I've said or actions I've taken in my own lifetime, I spend so much of my time dwelling in the past, thinking about what I could have, should have done.
All these things I want to change, things I wish I could have done, wondering about the people I've met, all does something extremely negative: it holds me to these impossible standards-to change things I can never change-and pins me to the past. 
Christ calls on us to "keep running the race", to "look to the Author and Finisher of our faith". 
I'm so busy looking behind me, I do nothing but run into all of the obstacles that stand in my path.
So I'm beginning year nineteen with the resolution to look ahead.
I can't change the past, and I can't keep living expecting myself to.
Back to the main topic of discussion: my birthday itself was a quiet affair, just the way I like it. 
My sister got me the most thoughtful necklace from Etsy: sea glass and silver wire shaped into a teapot!
It reminds me of my two favourite things: tea and the sea!
My lovely coworker and friend, Cassandra, got me something to delight my inner Who-vian nerd.
In the words of my favourite Doctor: "People assume that time is a strict progression of a cause to effect, but actually from a non-linear, non-subjective viewpoint it's more like a big ball of wibbly wobbly timey wimey...stuff."
*Satisfied grin*
My birthday gift to me was a vintage train case- something I've wanted for some time now- in mint condition, found at my local thrift store for under ten dollars.
When compared to the sky-high prices for the same thing on Etsy, I feel like I've done rather well!

Thing Two: I'm An Aunt (Again)
Yup! That's right! I'm deplorably behind in posting this, but my little nephew, Huck Bushatz, was born about a month ago!
Here he is, looking much like an extraterrestrial as most newborns tend to do.
And here he is in a hat, knit by his Aunt Grace (That's me: I have to call myself that every once in a while so that I don't forget I've got crazy-lady duties. Everyone needs a crazy aunt, and I'm pretty sure it's me.)
Of course, Amy and Co. live in Georgia, so I still haven't gotten to even hold this munchkin yet, but this might be a good thing: babies and I don't seem to get a long very well. Whenever I hold one, it declares its dislike of me very vocally (and I might mention very loudly too).

Thing Three: The Boys In The Band
I've always been in love with classical music (and for my fellow music nerds, I'm using "Classical" as a generalization. I'm really in love with the Romantic era, although Classical is stunning as well), but it seems to be all I can listen to right now.
There's something so rich and inexplicably breath-taking about classical music. It is fuller, more-developed, and seemingly more expressive than modern lyrical tunes. The way it draws one in, how it can express to perfection entire thoughts or emotions in one line of song. Modern music, with its back beat and lyrics somehow seems infinitely less imaginative and expressive than one symphony by Debussy. An opera by Mozart can tell a better, more heartfelt tale of the hear than a hundred of today's love songs put together.
Hmm, I'm beginning to get carried away again, aren't I? 
Well, to get back on subject, my most recent musical obsessions have been playing Vivaldi's Four Seasons, windows down, at a rather high volume as I drive around town. This draws many confused stares from those driving along-side me, but I figure they could use some tasteful music in their lives.
My latest craze has been in the form of Georges Bizet's Symphony No.1 in C, and Jeux D'enfants Op. 22
And, of course, I'm always listening to Claude Debussy (Chopin, Stravinsky, and Mendelssohn are in there too!).
I often wonder what you, my readers, like to listen to.
So I'm finally going to ask!
What's on your list of most-played? 
Who's your favourite artist or musician?

Thing Four: Looking Ahead
Things that are going to be happening soon are:
1. Work, work, and more work. I'm working a lot this week (and hopefully the week after, and the week after, and the week after...), and I'm loving it! I have a great job. 
2. Brianne is coming home! My bestie returns from her college sojourns sometime next month, and I'm very excited! We'll get to do fun things again which brings me to number...
3. Feist concert on May 29. Yup, you read right! I bought tickets for Brianne and I to go hear one of our favourite artists, the lovely Feist, in concert next month. I'm so very excited!
4. My brother's wedding. It's not until the end of Summer, but there are details to be looked after! I'm honoured and excited to be a bridesmaid, and I can't wait to pick out dresses and hopefully get my craft on with Sophie and her sisters for some of the smaller details. I adore weddings!
5. Manicure. I was told that I can't stick all of my birthday money into college savings, so I've decided that I'm going to go do something I never thought I'd do: get acrylics. It sounds absurdly girly (and I'm not going to lie: I can be absurdly girly), and they will actually be quite short, but I have such ridiculously stubby fingers on disproportional hands, so perhaps this make my hands look more like the long, elegant, fairy-hands I've always wished I had. 
What are your upcoming plans and activities? Anything exciting happening in your world? 
Be sure to leave a comment in the box telling me all about it!

April 9, 2012

The Merry-Go-Round Of Life.

Do you know those days (weeks, months) that you don't necessarily feel like you have a lot to do, just not enough time to do anything in?
Well, I'm feeling a lot like that recently. 
However, I'm not complaining, especially when I compare it to the weeks of maddening stagnation that followed my return from New York last Fall and stretched through to the new year. 
No, I'm enjoying my days of dissipated busyness, even if it does put blogging as the last thing on a surprisingly short list of things to ultimately do. 
I promise to elaborate on my current life and situation soon, but for the mean time, here is a brief summary of what's been going on lately.
I've been working here. A lot.
And showing up at the door at unscheduled times for unscheduled hours doing restock.
I've become a year older...
...Been given some cool earrings to go with it...
...And been enjoying all the fine things this season has to offer. 
Paramount among them being the celebration of Christ's resurrection, and the arrival of many cherry blossoms.
Shenanigans have included driving around singing raucously along with my music, knitting, unraveling, and knitting again things for my nephew, sending off secret, sneaky gifts to my best friend away at college, drinking new kinds of tea, trying on lipstick shades at Macy's, writing and tearing up bits of poetry, completing and submitting my FAFSA, and being asked to be a bridesmaid in a wedding. 
Life is full indeed.
And I will be sure to fill you lot in as soon as I feel up to it.
Cheers to you lot, and here's to hoping you enjoy Spring while it lasts!