November 25, 2011

Pause

It's deplorable of me to have neglected my blogging for so long! 
I'm afraid that at one point during the duration of my treatment I found that I was thinking of my blog as something I "had to do", so I decided perhaps I should take a step back for a while and really focus on  the matters at hand. It seems to have worked, so perhaps you'll forgive me and not have completely lost interest in the goings-on and ramblings that I like to put up here.
The greatest piece of news is that I am back home, safe and sound.
The sad bit is that I'm truly missing New York, as well as my new-found friends there. 
I don't really have the time or thought energy to really go into details or expound on all of my experiences (I'm currently running a low fever and battling a nasty cold), but I promise to in the near future. 
For now, perhaps your curiosity will be satisfied with a few of the pictures I took over the past few months: New York is so lovely in the Fall!
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You've all probably heard lots about Central Park before, but it far exceeds any description words can give it. It's probably one of my favorite spots in all of Manhattan.
Some other place I went include St. John's Cathedral...
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...The Empire State Building...
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...Washington Square...
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...and a few different Macaron shops. I was lucky enough to be able to go to the only Laduree in the entire US, and let me tell you: their macarons are absolutely to die for. The shop is just as adorable as their website (if not cuter). These are a couple of macarons I had with my sister Michelle at La Maison du Macaron. Pink champagne and walnut pear. Delicious!
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It's been a fantastic and unforgettable two-and-a-half months, and I feel so blessed and thankful (especially in light of this season and the holidays both yesterday and yet to come) to have been able to make the journeys I have in the past couple of months, as well as the past year. 
Even with the disorder, I have so much to be thankful for, and have learned so much because of everything. God is good. 
There is no denying that I love New York, and -I won't lie- already miss it terribly. I would go back their in a heartbeat if I could.
On another note, I currently have a horrible, no-good cold which, in turn, has given me a headache and a red nose. I'm really hoping I feel better by tomorrow for church. I'm already nervous about all the things people are going to say to and about me (the last thing a person with an eating disorder wants to hear after leaving treatment and trying to make it on her own are people saying how different, better, or "good" she looks. It's quite the opposite of encouraging and helpful, even if well meant).
All the same, it's something I'm going to have to deal with and get used to. Better now than later, most certainly!
I hope everyone's Thanksgiving was splendiferous, and I promise to write again soon with more details.
Cheerio!
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November 2, 2011

More Than This

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I am more than a number.
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The fate and outcome of the universe does not rest on the number on the scale: if, and when, it changes, nothing disastrous is going to happen.
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I will not let weights and balances write the way I live my day, and the way I live my life.
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I believe in more and higher things than this.
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My perspecitve is based on larger things than this, on greater odds, more important deciding factors.
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IammoreIammoreIammore!
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I hate weigh-in days.